I feel like my blog isn’t so personal anymore - when I created this platform, I did so with every intention of using it as a space for, I guess…what you could call an “online journal”. But somehow my own personality just became lost in a void of copious amount of images, music, and other un-meaningful snippets. To a certain extent, yes, I suppose I can relate to these things (in the mildest form). But I can’t say i’ve ever looked back on a single post i’ve created, and remember anything about that day - Everyone associates memories with certain things, whether it be smell, feelings, weather, a certain place, or time - even the company you keep. But my mind has just become completely blank, instead I sit here, sieving through my dashboard trying to find something mildly interesting, and different, that can hold my attention for more than thirty seconds. Not to mention the fact, that I have some brilliant followers, and the vast majority of them I’ve barely interacted with - and the ones I do, are just within a small circle of blogs i’ve hunted down for similar posts like mine? It’s just an ongoing vicious circle of contradicting myself. How many times must I tell myself my brain is clearly craving something different? So, i’m going to try and make more of a conscious effort to post more personally. I want to enjoy blogging again, not just use it as a diversion when i’m mind numbingly bored. I also, would love to speak to some of you guys, so if you’re ever on my page, then please, don’t hesitate to drop a “hello” sometime! I promise - i’m nice!
Jade X